That was a saying someone had told me when I was really young. At first I didn't understand what they meant, but as I grew older I began to get the idea. To me, that saying answers many of the pointless questions people ask.
When I talk to people, I am always looking for a sense of passion. I love seeing how people get lost in a dream or a hobby. It's almost as if they disappear and become one with whatever they care so much for. Through time I see that there is no passion that surpasses loved ones. Everyday, I hear about how a certain person or a group of people have saved someone from themselves. Looking around I saw that everyone had that one person that they'd be prepared to die for. Then I got to thinking, what happens when that one person disappears forever? What if they are taken by an illness or by someone else's evil intentions? When I ask people this, their reactions to that is full of sorrow and violence. I've gotten a range of people saying that they would have to kill themselves, take revenge, or some other form of action. I have gotten few answers retaining to moving on and dealing with it. Those who were uncertain were lying. I could tell by the look in their eyes that they knew the answer but were unsure if they should say "the right thing" against the "wrong thing."
While pondering this topic the first thing that popped into my mind was war. People fight for what they love. While on the battlefield you carry with you the thing you want to protect, so you try to eliminate the ones who are trying to take that thing away. While sitting at home, you hear that your loved one was killed, then the one you tried to protect disappears and so you are left with a choice. Move on or fight. Now you carry that tiny piece of hatred and take to war. It's an endless cycle. Everyone has a motive whether they choose to admit it or not. War will never end as long as people have the ability to love and contain the passion and determination to keep it the way they want it. As I crossed that conclusion, I figured out where chaos comes from. Something so innocent and gorgeous grows into pure evil without anyone even realizing it. I understand that this is not always the case. But as you all know, "nothing gold can stay."
Now I want to know your opinions on this matter. What does that quote say to you? What would you do if the one most precious to you were taken away? Is your answer the "right thing to say" or your actual feelings? This is probably a dark way to end the year, but it's just what was on my mind at the moment.
P.S How do get a step dad who thinks he's a handy man to stop messing around with the internet so you could use it for school? Goodness.....
Yami, your writing style is very unique. I kinda like it.
ReplyDeleteI think the quote means that if you really love something, you have to love it in spite of that fear of hatred. I play guitar because I LOVE it, despite many people around me telling me that what I wanna be is "not professional, and I'll be throwing my life away." When you love something that much, you're willing to make the sacrifices for it.
The most precious thing to me? That's tough. I don't know if you mean something tangible, or anyting at all. If tangible is the answer you're going for, then it would be my art. I put it that way because I love more than one medium in art. I love music, but I love charcoal art, too. If either of those were taken away from me... I'm not a "fighter." But I will fight all day long for what I believe. And I believe that music and drawing can help the world. Could you imagine how many benefit shows one person can get through in a year, while still maintaining a profit? That's a TON of helped children, because of the power of music. Could you imagine how much some drawings could sell for at a charity auction? That's a massive amount of people around the world helped out because of the power of drawing.
If you're meaning anything in the world, I would only say this: Not ONE thing could take away my love for Jesus Christ. I would not make it a minute if my God was taken away from me. I would rather die a thousand deaths for Him.
And I understand that's probably not the "right" thing to say. It's just exactly how I feel.
P.S. I'm sorry, but I really don't know. My dad's not familiar with the computer, so he usually leaves it alone. :/
Indeed...(btw, I use that word a lot...)
DeleteYet art and my ideas are very tangeble to me. And although I may not be musically inclinded, I love music as well.
And Jesus? I do believe that's a given on how I feel :3
And hahahah I'm the computer person in my house. my dad comes to me for help.
Hmmmmmm. SO very deep. And HOLY POOP I'm #2!!!
ReplyDeleteAnyway, love and hate are two sides to the same sword. The more you care about someone, the more of a chance there is for these emotions. People fight over what seem to be silly things, and other people tell them off, saying "who cares," when in actuallity OBVIOUSLY THEY DO!
What if my passion was suddenly taken away? Emptyness. Sometimes I feel empty if I dont draw one day, but forever? I wouldnt be the same, to some that may seem silly but to me it's VERY real. I might get mad if it were someone's intentional action for that to occur, but if no one did it. I'd just be here...
That's what I'd feel! I would simply feel hollow, and that's not right. I would be unsure and unstable, and I don't think anything else could fix that. O.o
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DeleteAs my other posts have been sufficently long, this one will be short, mostly because I have no motivation at the moment to say much.
ReplyDeleteAll I will say is this: During my time in a mental hospital, I had a bit of an epiphany. Even now, more than a year later, I have not yet the words to describe what it has done to me. One of the things it inspired, though, is the ability to realize that if you can let go of emotion, it will flow to and from you in waves that you can control. It's almost like you can just turn them off and on whenever you would like...
That isn't exactly spot-on, but it's about as close as you're going to get.
I make the concious decision to try and save anyone from the clasp of death, even if it involves risking my own. It is a part of this realization, the part that pointed out something...Disturbing?
Every day, you prepare for some other time in your future life. It's a constant cycle; brush your teeth so you don't lose them later, take a shower so you don't smell bad, pay the bills so you can have the things you want later, go to work to save up for retirement. All of it is for the future. I believe the reason so many people die unhappy is because they realize this too late; that they have been preparing for the next step their entire life. We have no other choice but to.
To me, as dismal as this epiphany sounds, this realization gives me peace. I am settled in my beliefs that came from this great change and I find that I accept these thoughts with no further depression. I am, finally, at peace.
P.S. - As for the stepfather problem, fix it yourself and show him that you've done it better. It might make him stop thinking he can do it better.
DeleteI know what you mean. I do that sometimes now. Especially in english class. Im glad my last day was yesterday. Although when I do this, I get unusually tired...I wonder why.
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